It’s my drug and when I can’t have a “HIIT” of it I want to neck myself because I’m stuck with reality. My entire back is very bruised and my legs haven’t recovered, so loneliness has a chance to shine. I don’t like the people that o tend to attract so being around them is not an option I’m willing to take. Wish I could drink myself into oblivion without getting fatter. Wish I could go to sleep forever and never wake up ❤️🙃✌️